GIVEAWAY?!?!?!

I want to do a giveaway but I need more people to follow cause if not then ill have to keep the prize so please pass me on. The prize will be worth at-least $15. If you have suggestion of what it should be write me and let me know  

Fall Festival

Well today is the Fall Festival at the kids school, John and I are taking the kids well Emma will already there cause shes at the after school program, but were also taking Jacob cause his mom and dad are at work. The kids have been excited to go all week. I love doing these little family functions with John, Jacob and Emma, one reason is because the last guy I dated wasn't family orientated at all so we never did the family things together at all. Emma was little when her Dad and I were together (and our family's did NOT want us together) so we didn't do many family outings together either. John is and has been the only (well Emma's Dad and I have don't a few family outings but we were not dating) guy that LOVES doing the family gatherings as much as I do he even likes going to the school meetings, cause it makes me feel like a dad. John has no kids of his own. So yeah were excited to do the fall festival. The school does it every year and everyone who attend gets one piece of pizza and bottle of water for free there is free games and prizes. There are things you can purchase but you don't have too but it supports the school.   

I went to a movie

I went a movie on Saturday.......

      Well first off I went to a movie on Saturday and to let you know I have always had this huge fear of movie theaters due to that fact that I'm scared s**tless that I'm going to catch lice, yes lice i just think about peoples hair touch the back of the chair. I honestly don't know if they clean or spray the chairs with some sorta lice killer or whatever. I should probably find out if they do. Anyway i went to the movies saw the "Annabelle", my opinion on the movie was not so good, the movie was OK yes just OK I love horror movies i can get enough but this one watching it once was enough ill never want to see that movie again one time was good, but at the same time if there is nothing else one I would watch it I have seen worse movies. So in my eyes and my opinion the movie "Annabelle" was just an OK movie.

But please don't go see it cause I said it was just OK go see it and make your own opinion. 

Baby? YES...NO....YES....MAYBE

          So I have been talking to my fiancee about maybe having a baby and we both have agreed that this is the right time for our family to be expanded, this is super exciting for me and also for him (he has no kids of his own). 

           As I was telling friends/family I was shocked to hear that they were not so happy and seemed that some were VERY UNHAPPY with choice that we made. Yes I'm not married but we plane on being married next year in Aug 2015. I don't understand why people cant be happy for us I find it so hurtful and disappointing. I had my first and second daughter (yes I said first and second I had  my first daughter in 2006 and she was born full term and past away in the hospital at 18 days old I will go more into that when I'm ready in another post) in not so good situations and no one was upset angry or hurt or unhappy that I was having either of them but NOW that  I have my life in order and we pay all our bills on time and have money left over and don't really have any debt and we have no loans and were happy and healthy adults people are UNHAPPY I call bullshit on that. I'm so upset on the inside and yes ill never tell this to there face cause chances are ill say something and hurt there feelings, and I'm not like that I care if i have hurt someones feelings. I just don't understand why I don't deserve for them to be happy for us cause if the tables were turn I'd be so happy for whatever that were wanting, if it happened for them. I feel like the people that close to me family/friends only see me negatively nothing positive and honestly I'm not a bad person I know I'm not. Its like all the see and WANT out of me is failure and that so sad to me. Its like all I hear form them is how I'm doing everything wrong but I have a happy man and child so I have to be doing something right, I want more positive support from people that are suppose to be there for me.They don't want me to have  baby, if you don't then don't be around me while I'm pregnant and don't be around my baby. And if you have NOTHING nice to say about me being pregnant or wanting to be or anything about me, then please DON'T say anything to me.

          I feel sad that this was taken from my fiancee he was so excited and had to hear negative things about our soon to be child (not even made yet), if your thinking well did they say it to him no they didn't say it to him, hes my  partner and I tell him everything so he knows how they feel as well as I do. 

         I know this sounds mean to them but its kinda mean that there not happy for me when i have not gave them any reason to think I couldn't do this.

         Sorry for the rant its just something i have keep in for the last month or two 

Emmas Dad

           Emma's dad i will not give his name but i dated him when i was 18-23 on and off. We were young and doing dumb things and being crazy, but we truly loved one another. When Emma turned 2 I wanted to grow up and start being the adult i need to be for my daughter I was still living at home with my mom and husband (whom i was not getting along with at the time).I moved in with my sister changed all my ways started learning from her everything a good mom and wife was suppose to do. After living with her for a few months i told Emma's dad that he either need to step up or I'm gone, he didn't care. So when we broke up (Emma lived with me and always will there no consider anything different) we fought so bad and all the time that i refuse to have him com get his daughter his mom had too. But as time pasted some more bad things happened to him minor things to me, now 5 years later we are friend and talk daily and have went on field trips with Emma together. We are doing so much better he has just recently started being the man I knew he could be my fiancee and him get along. So yes we have finally made it place i was hoping we would one day be at. 
           So yes that's the store about Emma's dad and I. I hope you enjoyed although I don't think ANYONE read my blog but I'm enjoying it for my self like it a journal, but if someone is reading my blog pls leave a comment or send me a message I'd really like to know lol 

Parents Who Ignore Their Kids

          I have never been one of those mothers who tune out my child ever have I always hear "mommy" and answer to it unless I'm in the middle of a conversation. I don't like it when a parent tunes their kid out and you sit there and see (in the stores, restaurants) and hear a child got "mom mom mom mom mom mom" i don't understand how that mother can not hear her child asking for a drink i cant understand how they tune them out i don't get use i can not do i have tried and and i literally can not, I will never be able to ignore my child or any child for that matter. I find myself feel sad for those children. Now I'm not saying that I or someone should drop everything and attend to the kids, but if you have a 3-4 year old saying mom 15 times i think you should ask what they need. They shouldn't have fight for your attention cause honestly your the only one they should and expect to have your whole undivided attention. 
          This is just my opinion and that's how I feel. I'm sorry if this is how you treat your child, and this made you feel like a bad parent that's not what I'm tying to do at all but not that you know and you feel bad you still have plenty of time to change good luck answer those kids. 

Our Love Story

           We first found one another online in a chat room on yahoo (computer lobby room 3 year 2010). I came into the room to ask for help with my sister’s computer, John answered the question. I added him to my messenger list just in case I needed help later on.
           One year passed and I had another question and I knew just who to ask, of course John knew the answer (as he does to everything). After he had answered my question (with in 2 hours of talking to John) I knew he was the one, I stated to him "your going to love me one day" John's reply was yeah o.k your crazy, I then told him "your my soul~mate" John again thought I was NUTS. We talked online everyday for a few months then he gave me his number to text him it was around the beginning of December 2011. Then he called me for the first on New Years 2012. We were starting to get really close and somethings about one another were just so crazy that we had I'm common and silly things too like I wore a Celtic ring he did too i wore it on my middle finger left hand he did too. His mother had pasted away but i share the same birthday with her. Crazy silly stuff like that. At this point he had only see pics of me but i had seen him on cam (my computer didn't have a cam). Around my birthday (May 13th) he actually sent me a net-book with a cam so we could see one another when ever we wanted and talk on Skype and all that  failed to mention he owned his own computer store and had extra laptops laying around but took a chance sending one to me not know who I was. We talked online on cam for a whole year from the start till when we met. he cam down to N.C. in Aug. 2012 and we realized we were who one another had said. he stayed for a few days then left and came back for another visit at the end of Oct and proposed Nov. 1st. After a few more visits he moved here in April 2013 and we moved in with one another and have been together ever sense .
             I have never felt so calm and secure in a relationship, never could imagine someone loving me and my daughter like he does (she is not his Ill save that for another post) and i could never see the man standing at the alter when i thought about getting married he never had a face till i got with John, now i know who I'm walking to.        

First time John and I met:

Our Animals and their Stories

Our Animals and their stories: 

        Well first there was Jasper our German shepherd mixed dog, he got his name Jasper because I was reading the "Twilight" books at the time I got him. He was a rescue they said they found him at a church abandoned. He was a little (big) puppy so fluffy and sweet and he was puppy pad trained which is weird for someone to spend time training him but leaving him anyway that was about 4-5 years ago now hes my large dog he shakes hands and sits and very protective over my daughter and nephew. I love my dog. 

         Then there was Sally our tuxedo cat, named after Sally on "The Nightmare Before Christmas" movie (no I was not watching it I just like it and soon you will see how much) Shes a crazy cat that my sisters cat had and she need to get rid of so i took her once we moved into our place, she use to jump on people once they walk in our door she stopped that though.Shes about 2 years old.

         Then Jack bet you cant guess what he was named from.......yup "Nightmare Before Christmas" He was found under my neighbors porch crying away and he was so young I'm guessing he was like 3 weeks old. Being that young i had to feed him every 4 hours we had buy kitten formula. We had no intentions on keeping him but my fiancee became attached to him so we kept him now hes not even 6 months old and a crazy kitten that eats anything from carrots and broccoli and pickles.  

          Last furry creature is our newest addition is my daughters guinea pig. His name is Fred ha not its Zero bet you didn't see that one coming. Emma saved up all her money and bought him she wanted a hamster but for a 7 year old i think guinea pigs are better and don't really bite. He's kinda normal and the one thing finny that he does is run around his cage at top speed and goes around in circles.          
       Last but not least is Blob the glow fish. He was named by my nephew. I had bough the black light and 4 glow fish a orange,blue, pink and green but my tank caught ick and they all died but Blob so now Blob is by himself. 

Jack and Sally (a few weeks after we got Jack)

  

Jack and Zero, I think you can figure out who's who.

Ill post a pic of Jasper tomorrow seeing how I forgot to take one.